headache-yMonday, August 06, 2007

today was, without doubt, the worst day i have had in a long time. last night, i had a horrible headache. papa massaged my head for a bit then i took two panadols and went to sleep early. only to find out that the pain kept intensifying. i kept waking up every 15 mins. and the 15 mins that i would sleep would be characterized by vividly horrible nonsensical dreams. finally, when i could take it no more, i went to pester papa at 7am. he massaged my head again for a little while but then he had to leave for work. a little while after papa left for work my blood pressure started going low low, cold sweat, whatnot. so i decided to have chocolate milk. the two sips i had, i had to run to the bathroom to throw it up. mouth obviously felt horrible, so had a few sips of water which had the same fate as the two sips of chocolate milk. my entire body shaking, cold sweat. i decided to check my blood pressure. which was my normal 100/70. then i decided fuck it. had two panadols again. had a lexotanil. and prayed to god to somehow make me sleep. i did sleep. for a long time. woke up with only a slight headache which got better later on.

i get such scary headaches that they're impossible to deal with. they completely immobilize me. i can't think, can't concetrate, can't see. it's horrible. they last for any time between nearly 10 hours to even, sometimes, 3 days. they've been happening for a couple of years now.. initially they used to happen once every three months or so. in the past few months they started happening every month. and now, this past month.. this was the third time this happened.i can't possibly deal with headaches on an average of 6 days every month when i start working. i can't deal with such severe pain. it's so horrible :(