second best?
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Lately, it seems like I’ve been getting the most rotten deals. I have always prided myself on getting work done, but lately I find myself settling for the second best. I find myself being talk into something I know is not right. It’s not just one thing, it’s been piling up – I don’t understand how to control it.
My car was making squeaky sounds, there was a problem with the shocks. I got it fixed two weeks ago, instead of fixing it, the mechanic made it worse – now it makes squeaky sounds and is so bloody low that it hits every fcking speed breaker I pass. I find myself going to him every other day and let myself be talked into how he will fix it “tomorrow”. That tomorrow never comes.
I got a new charger for my laptop. The pin is loose and pulls out of laptop every time there’s a slight movement. It is not grounded properly and whenever I hold my laptop whilst it’s plugged in and no earth, not wearing any slippers on the marble floor – I get half electrocuted. I took it back to the shop where I wonderfully let myself be talked into how there’s no current at all, and the problem must be with my electrical sockets at home.
I’ve been seeing someone for seemingly forever who refuses to acknowledge something that is very important to me and when I blow up and give silent treatment, makes no effect, and results in no communication for about a week and still going. Maybe we’ll never talk. With the way things are going, I hope we never do.
Then there’s the pseudo best friend. Oh, we’re as close as sisters and all that jazz. Then there comes the bitching, the lying, the deceit. What is wrong with all the people in my life? Who can be friends with someone who shits about you behind your back, who acts like a little child, who is immature and unfocused, who judges you when you do something and when she does the same thing it’s her being ‘innocent’ and ‘confused’, who does not keep any commitments and is the most irresponsible person you have ever met?
As each single day passes by, I find myself settling for lower and lower standards – when this is the time I should be redefining all I want out of life. What am I coming to.
My car was making squeaky sounds, there was a problem with the shocks. I got it fixed two weeks ago, instead of fixing it, the mechanic made it worse – now it makes squeaky sounds and is so bloody low that it hits every fcking speed breaker I pass. I find myself going to him every other day and let myself be talked into how he will fix it “tomorrow”. That tomorrow never comes.
I got a new charger for my laptop. The pin is loose and pulls out of laptop every time there’s a slight movement. It is not grounded properly and whenever I hold my laptop whilst it’s plugged in and no earth, not wearing any slippers on the marble floor – I get half electrocuted. I took it back to the shop where I wonderfully let myself be talked into how there’s no current at all, and the problem must be with my electrical sockets at home.
I’ve been seeing someone for seemingly forever who refuses to acknowledge something that is very important to me and when I blow up and give silent treatment, makes no effect, and results in no communication for about a week and still going. Maybe we’ll never talk. With the way things are going, I hope we never do.
Then there’s the pseudo best friend. Oh, we’re as close as sisters and all that jazz. Then there comes the bitching, the lying, the deceit. What is wrong with all the people in my life? Who can be friends with someone who shits about you behind your back, who acts like a little child, who is immature and unfocused, who judges you when you do something and when she does the same thing it’s her being ‘innocent’ and ‘confused’, who does not keep any commitments and is the most irresponsible person you have ever met?
As each single day passes by, I find myself settling for lower and lower standards – when this is the time I should be redefining all I want out of life. What am I coming to.
posted by sheandher338 @ 9:31 PM
